Shuaiqi's space

salter or proter

2012-02-08T17:32:00.003-05:00

I have been frustrated, disappointed at times in my life. But never has anything work-related hit me hard like this. SHIIIIT i said to myself. i seriously thought that I had protein crystals long ago, with the conditions not seemed to produce any calcium salts. today when sarathy helped me put the crystals on the beam, it diffracted, not as a protein, but salt. I have been working on this very condition for months--- pH gradients, macroseeding, you name it. What made it seem more promising is the crystals don't appear until 2 weeks later, and they have been growing steadily which lured me into more excitement. I even thought I was gonna solve this structure by the end of the year. Guess what?!........ NOTTT.

So the mother nature has played a trick with me. A trick that she had played with many scientists, lead up path to the garden where there is a tiger awaits. To me, i rather be eaten by a tiger than fuckin finding about this crystal shit after months. I shall see this taught me a lesson. you aint getting anything easy, if you do, something is wrong. i loved sarathy's attitude towards this, all i have to do is come in tomorrow and have a fresh start. Start with more screenings! Really, u dont deserve a structure yet. think about it, I never worked as hard as tsun did on crystallization.

well that is life, pain or joyce, I will have to take it on like a man and make it better.

resume editing

2012-01-28T15:21:00.006-05:00

Just added a couple things on my 2012 resume. it is funny that i had quite a few items almost forgotten. man, i've done a lot in these years! WOW. it is really a serendipitous experience every time i edit my resume. this time, its for the application of being a lecturer for the MCat students this summer. I really want this job, and hopefully this is not too late for me to apply. just thought maybe with accumulating teaching experience i could be free-lance lecturer or something of the same sort in the future. that would be really nice as that would almost set me as a typical young man i've been admiring in murakamis novels, except i've already got a stable relationship on top of it. this feeling of being "on the road" really sparks my excitement at times!

lets do it, and you will get it! if not, fuck it, try again next year! anyways its a good feeling, like its signaling that finally my knowledge is paying off. well get wild out there to experience, dont worry about the outcome for now! lets start the journey and uncover more of this mesh-like life!

On another note, i would really love to add one more iteam to my publication list. that is a paper with my name as the first author. well, it might sound a bit ego-centric, however, as once steve jobs said " when you were young, you care about those stuff". im just a young man who wants to get as much as I deserve, i guess there is nothing wrong in terms of integrity in this regard!

Reading notes for "Predictably Irrational"

2011-12-01T20:25:00.013-05:00

I have been reading quite a few books since I got my kindle last year. Instead of flipping through the pages without remembering anything, I guess it might be good for me to start writing up some notes to reflect upon at a later time.

A book i finished recently was called " Predictably irrational" by Dan Ariely, and it was quite a good read. The title was intriguing and its far-reaching implications were well supported with experimental data. We all know that standard economics assume human-beings are smart, logical and only make rational decisions. But what had been often (if not, always) overlooked was the fact that we can be stupid when it comes to decision makings. Some examples are "why we spend more money than we have; why painkillers that are 50 times more expensive seem to be so much more effective even though they have exactly the same chemical composition of those cheap ones; and why we procrastinate so much when we shouldn't" . All these phenomena were interesting, yet difficult to interpret.The authors had taken a experimental approach to address them in the book. Strikingly, it turned out that these "bad" decisions we make are not random. Instead, they are systematic, and as we repeat them over and over again, the irrationality is thus predictable. It all comes down to a new field referred to as " behavioral economics" which combines aspects of both psychology and economics. The author conducted very simple experiments to illustrate our irrationality. In one experiment, each of the two groups of students at MIT was given two slightly different beers: one is the commercially available budweiser and the other is budweiser with a few drops of balsamic vinegar. The first group of students was given the samples without knowing the fact that one beer was treated with vinegar, whereas the second group was told the difference before they tasted the samples. As you may have guessed, the first group loved the mysterious beer of balsamic vinegar when asked to compare the two samples; however, those poor kids from the second group were disgusted after knowing vinegar was added to their beer and opted for the commercial budweiser.

Many results like this were shown in the book. I dont know about you but they really just blew my mind. We can easily spot out the power of psychology here in our decision making and as demonstrated, we are indeed far less rational than standard economics assumed. I guess the point the author was trying to deliver was not how stupid we can be, but how we can improve upon our decision making skills by knowing the fact we can be irrational.

So, I swear I did not get any money advertising about the book, but I do think it is worth reading. And if you do read it, I hope you find it helpful like I did.

批判性

2010-11-28T15:12:00.003-05:00

三个月来的研究所生活很忙碌,也很充实. 但是虽说每天都觉得自己学到了很多新的知识,却总是觉得在搞研究方面离得心应手还有天大的差距,而却不知道该如从下手去取得进步. 当然我可以很轻易的把这个归结到我才是一个第一年的新生,搞研究的技能是需要时间才能形成的.可是找借口又是不能帮助我去进步的. 直到前两天读了我实验室一博士生
nelson的blog才觉得受到了一些好的启发.

他把一个合格的博士生所需要具备的3条条件总结为: 1.努力 2.一些好运气 3.批判性思考的能力(critical thinking).

第一条也就不用多说,做什么如果没有付出也就不要老张着大嘴等着天上掉下来馅饼吃,这个大多数人都知道,而且我相信也应该是大多数研究生所具备的能力. 好运气在研究当中也很重要.想想crystallography,如果你连crystal都搞不到,那就没法做下去了. 不过,这个运气是有前提的,那就是努力,要是没有努力尝试,运气不会自己找上门的.所以人要"try hard enough to be lucky". How hard is hard? well, it's gotta be really really hard.哈哈开个玩笑.

以上两点我也很早就悟到了,但第三条,具备批判性思考的能力这一项确实值得我再去深入研究. 这个词我曾在读本科时听到过无数次,但当时按照自己的努力去学习做事也确实做的还不错,大大的忽略了培养自己这方面的能力.
其实"批判性思考"只是从critical thinking直译过来的一个外来词,并不是告诉大家我们要总是以质疑的眼光去对待周围的人和事,也就是说"critical"这个词在英文中有它积极的一面. 也就是说批判性思考是需要一个人在考虑问题时不会因为一些简单的,表面的现象而很快的得出结论. 它需要involve一个人去用自己从多个方面得来的知识,去仔细科学的去解剖问题的关键, 从而得出成熟的解决方案.

以上只是我读到一些东西后brainstorm一些想法,可能有些定义不是很准.如有兴趣,请参考一些更准确的source.希望其他的朋友也会觉得以上的东西有些帮助,似乎批判性思考不仅仅仅是针对搞研究的朋友们,也许在从事其他行业的你也会发现它的益处.

Quebec City 2 episode

2009-12-25T15:27:00.005-05:00

The Christmas Eve dinner was alright, nothing that exciting but I had a good time talking with three European travelers. The conversation was mainly about our experiences with the Canadian University Styled parties. The food itself was not terrible but far from great, however, I always tell myself to be content with whatever food that feeds me. One of the fellows from Switzerland had a Queen's hoody on, and we had some talks about the university. He was excited to hear that I applied queens, and informed me about the party style in Kingston. I hope that was a good hint for me.
The Christmas Day of Quebec is quite, almost no shops were open, with a handful of cafes and restaurants still serving people. I chose a place called "Brendon", which serves crepes as I recalled from Bob who said Crepes are one of the amazing things that I can't miss in this city. He was definitely right, I liked it quite a bit. As I requested, Crepes were wrapped around pepperoni, beacons, with tomato sauce and swiss cheese. WIth this combination of the fillings, it's basically like Jacks pizza at Sackville, however it just tasted 10 times better with the Crepes wrapped around them. All service people at the restaurant were girls, I found myself have quite a thing for quebecois girls. They are just more exquisite than the girls I see at Mount A. With beautiful eyebrows especially, perfect skin tones (not pale as fuck), excellent smiles, and normally slim bodies. ohhh on top of those, their English mixed with a trace of Quebec French accent just makes it never better.

Now sitting at the lounge of Auberge Internationale de Quebec, across from me "sat" an old Quebecois (I guess), with his legs on the tea table, arms folded, and eyes closed. Despite the loudness within the vicinity, he's deep asleep snorting loudly with his mouth wide open. I wanted to giggle and take a hilarious video of him, and then i was like I :" Wait a second, this might happen on me in possibly 40 years. I would be in the exact circumstance, and a 22-year old brat might be thinking of taking me a video with his 580 Mega pixel Camera (or whatever they produce 40 years later)." So I gave up on the idea, and instead get it written here to at least have some memory saved of this funny moment.

Quebec City

2009-12-24T16:16:00.003-05:00

This is the place that I have always wanted to go, and here I am, in this gorgeous city.

Prior to take off, I was wondering that there might not be as much snow as i would like in Quebec city due to the strange weather this year. Yes, no snow in Sackville, but as we were cruising through to northwest NB, my worry has completely drifted away as the snow was big enough to cause a major delay for my bus from Grandfalls to rivere du loup.
Fortunately, I got to catch the transit bus and arrived at quebec city just at midnight. Knowing myself as a direction retard, I took a cab right to my hostel "Auberage Internationale de Quebec." On the way there, I was already amazed by the gorgeous gorgeous architectures covered in the fresh snow within the Old Quebec city, and I knew that "Hell YAYY, this is FUCKIng righttt!".
Having slept in a eight person dorm did not bring me many of the good memories in High school, might've been too excited to fall asleep, as well the Japanese mid-aged guy underneath woke up dead early in the morning. Really, no complains at all, early start of the day, why not?!
I was surprised that this hostel had quite a few Asian visitors, including a jap girl who help me open my door (i was retarded). She reminded me of Shoko big time, with such similar features and politeness. Damnnn I got to get on it, i said to myself haha.

I didn't plan on doing much for the day, since I had been telling myself that the trip is not only about sightseeing, but more importantly it's about the feeling, the unique stuff that only this city offers and I knew that's is the real shit i would enjoy. So I spent almost the entire day strolling along the old city, taking pictures of all these unreal architectures whenever I wanted to. I would have to say that Quebec City is the shit, it definitely has a strong character compare to many other cities I have visited in Canada. I do find a couple stereotyping Quebecois who would refuse to give in their stupid pride for English. However, I rather found people are extremely nice and warm-hearted.
I went to a restaurant right across street from my hostel called" .......latin" and ordered the food "Caribou couritere", which consist of an awesome bowl of beef stew, a salad with berry sauce raised by the locals and some bread. It was a great meal, 24 dollars in total, a little expensive but I was content with the quality of both food and service. The owner/waiter was an old French man who did not really speak English, however you have to give credit for people who tries, our fragmentary English plus Smiling communication methods worked out well at the end.

In an hour and half, I will be joining the Christmas Eve dinner at the hostel, to be honest I'm dead exhausting from colds and long bus ride, but still super thrilled for this event. I think I will kick off awesomely, can't wait for it! Last little wish for tonight was to catch that shoko looking girl, and Joyeux Noël/Merry Christmas/ 圣诞快乐 to you all PEOPLE!!!

back

2009-08-13T07:40:00.003-05:00

一年多来第一次弄这玩意。

今年夏天第一次没有回沈阳，到目前为止，除了4月Ottawa， 6月Halifax，和7月的PEI，基本没怎么离开过sackville。回想起来起来自己觉得挺惊讶的，想想过去的三到四个夏天里，哪个没有跋山涉水，四处游荡？这个夏天居然呆的这么稳当，不过坐下来仔细一想，步入成年人快4年了，却只有这个夏天过的像个后学生时代的日子。

原因很简单，一整夏天都在工作，虽然去年也在实验室里工作了一个多月，但是只有今年才真正在做自己的实验，为自己的毕业论文在工作，认真程度当然也就大部一样了。薪水似乎由于金融危机，缩了近一加元，但维持假期的生活却是绰绰有余，看看身边的人大多都是靠自己教学费，我已感到很幸运了。

真难想像，我以后也许大半辈子都要在实验室里工作，面对没有阳光的办公桌，大量的读paper，不停的做实验，我知道作为工作，这样的生活其实是不错的。但我无法劝服自己这就是我最喜欢的生活，于是在教授的推荐下，工作之余为sackville的十四岁一下的足球队当上了教练。加上代表sackille成年队踢联赛，我的夏天虽然安定，但一点儿都不无聊。

说上当教练, 是义务活动，并不给钱，但要带队和别的城镇打比赛，所以也是比较正规的一项工作了。全队一共17个孩子，虽然技术水平差异很大，但每个人都是好孩子，训练时都不偷懒，非常服从。带队快两个月了，感觉这才是我真正喜欢做的事情，与足球相伴，虽然我们的成绩惨不忍睹，但进步是坚实的，我也相信这支队伍会随着年龄，身体上的增长，变成一只强队。

发觉自己在实验室偷懒，先写这么多吧。

_

2007-10-14T18:34:00.000-05:00

昨天是个大日子，倒不是说什么周年或纪念日，但是活动却很多。周六起来照常去做化学实验，又是整整一上午，却一直想着要为下午的足球赛保存体力。不说都还忘了，这是我们edwards今年的第六场比赛，前五场两胜一平两负，其中一场胜仗还是靠对方没来比赛赢的。作为队长的我早已不复去年之勇，印度之行彻底摧毁了我身体的运动系统，那在足球场上叫个举步维艰。一礼拜来得健身房狂补，还是起了效果，让我打满全场也没有抽筋。这场比赛我们先是靠对手hunton hangover没有准时到场取得了胜利，然后和hunton hunnies打了场友谊赛，最终2：1险胜，有一助攻入账，算是对我全场糟糕表现的安慰了。

其实，做让我期待的还是晚上的floor crawl，因为这次的主题是“soldiers and army hoes", 我在脑子里窃窃地淫笑了一下，我那绿帽子终于能排上用场拉！去了2手店挑了一件绿衬衣，配上绿裤子，又贴了红色的五角星在绿帽子上，还真他妈想个解放军，由此，昨天晚上我成了全楼唯一的一个共产主义战士，非常骄傲，非常骄傲阿！

p.s.已经到了要和sackville最美丽季节说再见的时候了，摄景留念

farewell, India

2007-07-27T06:23:00.000-05:00

头一回想家，这人要是一得点病就是不行。

印度之行终于接近尾声了

学到了很多，发掘自己不足的地方更多

不过，庆幸自己还很年轻，还有的是时间与精力

就像人家说的 “青春不是年龄，是一种心态，请不要拒绝她的热情”

喜欢印度人的淡薄，但更想沈阳的猪牛肉。

别了，快乐的印度人们，我一定会被你们那可爱的微笑再次招来。

见闻

2007-06-15T09:40:00.000-05:00

十几天来的新鲜生活有滋有味，一切都太不一样，认为此次印度之行甚是值得。

Mysore的大街犹如野生动物园，除了那被印度人奉为神灵，成天摇头摆尾，长着快要拖了地的大奶头的各位牛哥们儿们，还随处可见羊，鹅，蛤蟆，壁虎，甚至是蜥蜴，还有蛇，让我不得不佩服善良的印度人们与大自然融合的信仰观念。虽说城市建设很是一般，3层以上的建筑屈指可数，但见到各位印度老哥们朴实的笑脸还倍儿让我开心，由于同行的女同学们大多是素食者，所以每当夜幕降临，嗜肉如命的我就与几个比较看得开的同伴打着机动三轮车（出租车）前往Mysore的各大豪华酒店餐厅改善生活，这些酒店通常都配有大花园，绿荫萦绕，加上Mysore沁心舒适的晚风，点上一盘羊肉，一瓶当地的kingfisher啤酒，简直过的是印度皇帝的生活，每到这时，几位哥们儿总是兴奋的重复着borat那句经典台词：“King in the castle, king inthe castle!" 虽说豪华，作为学生一族的我们却负担的起，印度不高的消费水平让这样的高档场所向我们每人索取不过6-7美元，这种价格在国内同档次的饭店门都没有，对于加拿大来的哥们儿们更是不值得一提了。

上周末我们做了所谓的Meditation，一直找不到合适的中文，据我体会，就是通过一种苦思冥想的练习达到从别的角度来了解自己的目的，大多数都是闭着眼睛嘴里念叨Master所告诉你的“咒语“，配上合适环境的音乐，以最终达到一种超乎自身的体会。可惜，我注意力不集中的毛病导致我并没有达到Master所要求的境界，也就无从再从别的角度观察自己了。剩下的加拿大同僚们却都大喊神奇，一天下来，对我来说是10个小时打坐般的煎熬，而剩下的人却欢天喜地。转过头来我合计，操，也没啥大不了的，也许正说明了本人具有抗邪教的能力，要是换成李洪志在讲座，那帮SB肯定也跟着信了。哈哈

一行全家福（除了一个大姐说死不爱照）

在一个大山里的tribal school，孩子们特别喜欢照相，看到这帮可爱的家伙，疲劳烦恼立即烟消云散了。

疯狂的宗教

2007-06-08T10:53:00.000-05:00

上午，照常上课，下午去了附近一座山上的庙，看到不少猴子，有一个差点把我水壶偷走.......

晚饭期间无比狂热的歌声唤起了我的好奇心，听起来像是圣歌，能隐约的听到“哈里路亚“等基督教词语。于是在饭后与几个同学步行十几米，顺着歌声来到了一个独立的大厅。探头一看，其盛况空前，大约能容纳200-300人的大厅里站满了手舞足蹈的人们，我们被一位手拿相机记者似的人物邀请进入了这狂欢一般的盛会，前台是一个看似很现代的乐队在演出，但唱的却是圣歌，主唱那个哥们儿唱的极为投入，煽情到死，下面的人们男女老少无不激动狂热，所有人都在舞动着自己的双臂，有两臂向天随着音乐摆动的，还有极其夸张大肆鼓掌打拍子的，绝大多数人都是闭着眼睛，高声狂唱，歌词似乎很多都是Hindi，但中间夹杂的英语却被唱的极其清晰响亮“Jesus, we worship you!!" 仿佛一种力量，作为没有宗教信仰的我都能感到那种感染力的强烈，用我寒酸的语言是形容不出来的，如果你曾经看过电影Borat中落魄的borat跑到了一个教堂里的那段场景，你就知道我所说的这些印度人当时显得有多么的疯狂，比起电影里的，有过之，而无不及。

遗憾的是，我没能带相机把这次意外的经历纪录下来，但我相信在剩下的日子里还会有类似的节目，到时再拿出来分享，不过我算是第一次体会到了宗教所带来的强大力量。

乐器

2007-06-07T09:14:00.000-05:00

像我昨天那篇写的, 那个音乐会震撼的都不行了，尤其是打鼓的那个爷们儿，就是我心中的偶像，看着他身体随着节奏的自如的摆动，实在是让在下佩服的五体投地。巧事就这么发生了，音乐会后我们来到了一家当地比较“豪华“的餐厅吃饭，就在我还对那鼓声意犹未尽的时候，RM教授告诉我我们一行的一个女孩正在学打印度鼓，随后我马上转向她，激动地问我可不可以一起学，得知，她才上了一节课，而且正想找人一起分担下学费。。。。。。哦也！

说做就做，今天下午我正式开始了我第无数次的学乐器里程。一堂课下来感觉很有意思，这个乐器是由两个一大一小的鼓组成的，对于平常用右手习惯的人来说需要用左手去拍打大鼓，右手敲击下鼓，第一节课下来一共学到了五个音，还没有五线谱复杂，而且对于新人很容易上手，但愿我能继续追随昨晚那场震撼的音乐会给我留下的余音，坚持下来！

印度鼓课上

由于航班延误，在曼谷呆了一天一夜，顺便和飞机上认识的一印度哥们游览了一下曼谷，注意我那恶劣的长裤，是他妈借的，由于那个皇宫不允许穿短裤入内，我只好忍辱负重乖乖的到门口租了条长裤。。。。

就是这么一个小小的“超龄“乐队，震撼了我的心灵。最左边那个就是传说中打鼓很牛逼的哥们儿。

a day of great experience

2007-06-06T12:52:00.000-05:00

I was hesitating about whether I should write this journal in English or Chinese, obviously chinese is my first language which I'm usually more comforble with, but since I'm gonna have to write papers in English in near future and all languages that came to my ears these days are english or the local language of Mysore, then i decide to write in english.

for the morning, this is the second day of classes, honestly for the first class I'm embarrased to speak that I couldn't really understand the prof's accent so that I just copied down afreen's notes right after the class, and for the gender class, i was being asked by the annoying "feminist" prof about chinese policies of women social status since there're only two men in the group. Apprently i was not prepared to argue about this gender issue since the majority of the class is female.

Actually what I call the great experience started at the early night about 6:30. Dr. Majithia just simply took our group to Dragon Mohan temple in Mysore where there is a splendid theatre to listen to the Hindustani Vocal Recital by Dr.Prabha. In fact at the beginning of this special concert, I was not paying great attention, gradually, as the fabulous drumer in the "band" got in to the role, the music has intensely penetrated to my soul, I feel like levitating with the tones of the singing of the old brown lady on the stage, and fantastic drumer was just my idol..... Dear Jesus, that was absolutely what I was expecting to happen in such a mysterious country---India!

later, Majithia just took us to another the so called sightseens in Mysore, the Jewel Rock resturant, there we just had an excellent dinner ever since we came to this country. The noodle that I have ordered was So fucking spicy which was one of the most fantastic food I have ever had in a year. Also, Majithia was eager to have us drank the indigenous beer called King fisher which made me feel pretty awesome since that was the first beer I drank in India.

Anyways that was the reason that I'm feeling a bit dizzy at the moment, however I'm quite fucking enjoying my experience today, hope for more, still got almost 2 months to spend, Lastly, I wish all the fellows who are writing the 高考tomorrow successfully!

Cheers!

hinduism

2007-06-05T08:14:00.000-05:00

经过三十小时的延误，终于到达印度南部历史小城mysore，学生搭配很美妙算我俩男七女，而且看起来女同胞们的质量还是很不错的：）

今天以正常开课，虽然是暑期课程，但从课程安排以及论文数量上来看，还是挺紧张的。印度文化课很有意思，已经给我朦胧的印度印象又加上了一层神秘的面纱，不过印度文化既然很大程度上是一种精神上的自我约束和反省，也正是我现在所期望的从另一个角度上了解自己，所以我很期待。

昨天晚上教授给我们放了关于甘地的电影，很震撼人心，绝对的伟人。他的理念和其他传统意义上一枪杆子夺取江山的伟人有着根本意义上的区别。甘地为了解放在英国统治下的印度的自由并没有采取武装冲突，相反他带领大家直接往英国人的枪口上撞得头破血流，这种行为为的是让英国人能够最终意识到其自身的邪恶，以达到让英国殖民者不得不妥协给与印度独立的目的。这种做法看似愚蠢，而却非常之理智。其间，甘地又多次以绝食的方式号召而且达到了让人们停止暴乱的效果，显示了他极强的人格魅力和对非武力解放印度的坚定信念。虽然甘地并没有能够阻止巴基斯坦的独立，但他的一生绝对堪称伟大和传奇，与毛主席一样，在印度他被印到了每张钞票上。

mysore这个地方似乎比较落后，但愿学期结束后可以有时间去泰姬陵，从儿时就梦想游览的神秘古迹，伟大的古印度，一直伟大的中国！

哥们说的对, 我已经改过来了哈

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2007-06-01T05:56:00.000-05:00

纪念一下，一个月的祖国情结已宣告尾声，前一半的生活并无太多滋味，倒是这最后两个礼拜过的挺精彩，同学们一个个的归来，生活也就逐渐的又充实了起来。

今天来到祖国首都，心情甚是澎湃，在庄严异常的装甲兵工程学院门口见到了一如既往嬉皮笑脸的羊，真他妈的亲切，这么多年了咱几个初中同学还是这么够意思真好。我们吃饭聊天打台球，最后居然又神奇的又跑到网吧打起星际了，想当年哥儿几个天天中午一个给大家买回民羊肉馅饼，剩下的一窝蜂的冲向网吧占座，还真怀念，现在都已经是20岁的人了不禁又感觉有些沧桑，想起那天和春哥聊天，我说咱赶紧抓住青春的尾巴使劲造吧，春哥却说，什么尾巴，青春才刚刚开始啊。是啊，人生才刚刚起步，一切都还不晚。

说到印度，还真没有作太多的准备，遥远说去了多带点香水小心被阿三们熏倒，但我直到刚刚和他通了电话才想起来，看来这下只能忍了，晕。。。。。

各位的变化都很大，有很多惊喜，谢谢这些短暂而又难忘的时光，八月份再见！

$$

2007-05-28T20:19:00.000-05:00

一直有个想法，把一年来用相机拍出的搞笑的，令我自豪的小短片粘到博克上，今天终于迈出了第一步，但由于网络不好，目前仅仅上传了一部，待续。

以下的场景发生在edwards house party中，在我的房间里，彪悍的东北大汉杜智超同学正在与我的邻居发生热舞关系，实在是搞笑，乐得不行，尤其是在智超边跳边说follow me 的时候，哈哈....

足球决赛我方少有的亮点

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2007-05-13T22:01:00.000-05:00

祝姐姐生日快乐! 日子过得真是快, 十五, 六年前咱仨还在老房子那些景象都历历在目, 无论大家在哪里都永远的彼此祝福, 盼望着以后的再聚!!

另外, 智超这两天来沈阳了, 前天和他去的雄跃, 还是挺好玩的. 这个世界真是太小了, 前些日子我们还在学校点灯熬油，这几天就又聚到一起洗温泉了，简直是太强了！过两天小米同学也将衣锦还乡，太神奇了！

PROCRASTINATION

2007-05-10T02:21:00.000-05:00

家总是好的，但回来这一段时间并没有想象中的那样兴奋。感觉8个多月的时间还是太短了，使我对回家都没有太多的新鲜感。

其实最重要的也就是见见家人嘛。

这个家从小就给我了一种奴性，回来之前就曾想到过这个问题，可是其威力却远非我可曾想到过的，每天一进家门，似乎就是一种无比愉悦的解脱，不再想干任何的正事，即使自己知道这样是极其恶劣的习惯，但还是难以得到爬起来干活的动力。

好在我还算有自知之明，从此不再给自己制定假期或是长期目标，给自己留下的在家时间也马上就过去了，这样一来还是会逼着自己做点事情。对我这种奴性过大的人我发现天天把努力挂在嘴边屁用没有，还会给自己找出上万个理由来不去做事情。

努力这个词，真他奶的垃圾。

既然什么都不爱干，那我就好好歇着，反正很快就又走了，很期待.

( )

2007-05-08T07:06:00.000-05:00

妈的, 我是服了, 世界真小. 谁又能想到一个在加拿大上学, 另一个在日本上学, 而且同是育才外国语毕业的学生能在波士顿的一个书店里碰到!????!

都已经过去两个多月了, 但前两天一看照片还是觉得不可思议.

￥￥

2007-05-04T18:35:00.000-05:00

家里还是舒服。

3天两夜的L.A.游让我不得不再一次赞叹美利坚这个国家的确是牛逼的，迪士尼公园以及universal studio都是巧夺天工，真是崩溃了。

如果在一年前，我也许会说：嗨，那逼玩意，也就那么回事吧。 But, gradually, i've learnt how to appreciate，这个世界真让人感到幸福。

这副巨画很有意思，我冷不丁一瞅差一点信以为真，一下子想到了Trueman's show 那里那个郁闷的哥们儿，无论怎样的挣扎努力也永远无法逃脱现实的人造地型，想起他当时壮志豪情般的扬帆远航，最后他的帆船却只能撞到逼真却绝对残忍的巨幅图画的“海面”上。

人类的创意灵感让我们的生活愈发丰富，舒适，

但会不会有一天我们自己也会像Truman一样被郁闷的困在自己亲手创造的世界中呢？

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2007-04-28T20:26:00.000-05:00

明天即将离开小镇了，这一周来近乎独自在这里的生活很是悠闲，在一个当地同学的导游下，两次初略的游览了sackville，发现，其实这里历史悠久，而且有很多知名的游览景观，有森林，沼泽，海滩，甚至还有英法战争时留下的法国堡垒.........
说起来挺丢人的，　一直以来认为sackville就他妈两条街，一个大学，而实际上却有这么多美妙的自然与人文景观。

为了能尽可能多的恶补我这一年来的遗憾，今天我自己又一次穿梭在waterfowl park，拍了一些照片来填鸭这一年来我对大学外sackville的记忆

哦也!

2007-04-25T19:17:00.000-05:00

成绩全出来了, 都还不错, 对自己第一年的大学生活, 我很满意!

最好的消息是Dr. Majithia说我的印度签证下来了, 估计周五就能收到!!!! 兴奋至极的我顿时浑身热血沸腾, 惰性瞬间烟消云散, 立即动身去了健身房, 直到跑的双腿不听使唤才气喘吁吁的换好衣服走人, 一路上我不停的傻笑, 自言自语的不知道在叨咕着什么! 老子终于拿到了! 之前一切的担心全化作乌有了, 无比的开心, 无比开心啊 !

刚一回来, 就看到msn上张文龙老兄在听尹吾的"你笑着流出了泪", 一下有了找到知音的感觉, 这个世界真是太美妙了!

终于, 终于, 在街上看到熟人时可以自豪的说上一句: I'm leaving soon!

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2007-04-21T19:02:00.000-05:00

今天的阳光真美。

看来天气的变化对人的心情状态的影响还是挺大的，反正对我是这样的。

随着期末的结束，天气也神奇的转变，两天以来的我尽情的拥抱着这迟来的春光，享受着生活的美好。突然感到，原来阴郁的天气其实是一种容易被忽视的压力，不光我能体会，连世界上的很多动物都会有所反映，什么阴天燕子低飞，野驴狂叫，除了科学上的一些解释，我断定它们也在为阴霾的天气而忧郁着。

阳光下，尹吾的歌似乎对我不再起作用，取而代之的“正午阳光”让我别有一种后期末时代的另番感觉，看来时常郁闷郁闷也并非太坏，这样一来才有灿烂阳光下的狂喜，不是吗？

咖啡店外趴着一条大黄狗，它半眯着眼睛，懒散的沐浴在饱满的日光之下，同时不断骄傲地接受着路人的爱抚，无比享受的样子。

如果有选择，我会选择下辈子在加拿大做条狗（不要在亚洲，免得被人吃了），因为看起来狗到和我很有共同语言。

我想了，再郁闷的时候，我会尽量找条狗聊聊天，也许同病相怜的我们会更快的治愈对方。

我就这么点出息，但这正是我所想的，怎么整吧。

也许有那么一个叫何勇的摇滚青年也曾经有过这样的想法，
记得他的歌里唱着“................, 不如养条狗。”

Sackville domination!

2007-04-19T23:05:00.000-05:00

This is the last day that I can stay in Edwards house in Sackville, I'm heading out tomorrow and gonna stay in one's apartment since Edwards will be closed and I have to wait for the fucking Indian visa even thought I sent it out 3 weeks ago. It takes only about one day to finish all the processing of the visa if you have the Canadian passport, but since my passport is Chinese, and unfortunately it is such a sensitive country to India, I am kind of in trouble with it. The other day, Dr. Majithia called me and saying since all the conflicts between India and China, it seemed your visa process is experincing problems, I remembered that I laughed so fucking loud about that. Those government conflicts have fucking nothing to do with me, I am just a little tiny student studying in an undergraduate university, and I just got the American visa, that is freaking ridiculous!

As I can't go anywhere without my passport, I'm stuck in Sackville till it comes, I have already cancelled my tickets from Halifax to LA, but I think it's not that bad at all. Sackville is such an awesome place for one to chill out, and according to the forecast it's gonna be sunny from tomorrow, that means as I getting rid of one of my last best friends Justin who is leaving tomorrow afternoon, I 'm getting rid of the blisterring cold, windy and rainy Sackville as well! That is absolutely a brilliant news for me, because it is utterly extremely beautiful in Sackville when it is under the sunshine!

So, I 'm not in a hurry as long as I can get to LA by May 3rd, which is when my flight from LA to Shenyang takes off, I would chill in the bridge street cafe and enjoy the rest of relaxing time in Sackville. Hope the Indian consulate can identify that I am not a spy from China as soon as possible and just deliver me the precious passport by the end of April. Seriously, if I'm getting it in time, I would love to celebrate it til I'm HAMMERED. just like last time for the house party^^. Let me cross my fingers and pray for the miracle!

是的, 我们一直是朋友.

Phil Clinton who is even cooler when called 郭帅奇!

向sackville人民致敬!

2007-04-17T20:55:00.000-05:00

考试结束，学期已接近尾声，天天看到一批批的家长开着车接学生们回家，我在想，如果我是他们中的一位该多好啊！
晚上迎着该死的寒风送智超，易然去车站，一辆卡车突然停了下来，里面的老头子摇开车窗，探头正要搭话，这一不太正常的举动立即全都写在了在我旁边智超的脸上，迎着反射在他刚刚剃完的光头上的月光，我看出了大庆人极高的警惕性。。。。。。。
"Are you guys going to the coach station? I can give a ride, just put all your stuff at the back"
瞬间，似乎那本充满着匪气的面容转为了Q版樱木花道般的疑惑，好像在合计“are you fucking kidding me?"
于是，我们仍然带着难以相信的心理上了车。不过很快便踏下了心来，原来这个老人还是我们的老校友，在Sackville 一辈子了，其中在Mount A就工作了近40年，出于热心以及顺道便帮助了我们。
下车后，智超说“要是在国内，打死我也不上车” 我们大家都乐了，可是再一细想，这在国内做好人还真是不容易，即便你出于好心，很多人也把你当变态了，真他妈的挺伤感的，这个老人似乎只是送了我们一程，但我却觉得学到了很多........

向Sackville 人民致敬，
来年我会学到更多。

郭帅奇

****

2007-03-25T18:33:00.000-05:00

扭捏的生活，很累， San Banquet很不错，姚远马上毕业了，本还不觉得，昨天他说：帅奇我俩待会合个影吧，你来这么长时间了咱还没一起照过相呢，听得我挺难受的，哎。。。人们总是来来往往，也正常.......

后来的 school pub 熙熙攘攘，傻逼姚远的怂恿下，我毅然展现了东北剽悍的民风，以创新般的速度干掉了一杯所谓“美国轻啤”的银子弹，有所眩晕有所眩晕阿。

据智超说考试考得不错，看来他明年也很有可能回Mcgill了，这下看来本来就不庞大的MTA中国军团又将有人才流失，很扭捏很扭捏阿！

这个世界还真存在牛人这玩意，不服真的不行啊！

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2007-03-17T23:21:00.000-05:00

上周生物实验验自己的血型，扎破自己的手指，挤出自己的血作为实验材料，挤的过程中不知不觉中又开始眩晕，妈的，又晕血了。只好请了假，出去溜达了一圈，忍着恶心坚持做完了实验从而这辈子第一次知道自己的血型是B-，不容易。。

为什么晕血？难道对自己的血液中的不忿，极端感到厌恶?

Sick of my own blood? hope a cure!

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2007-03-16T23:30:00.000-05:00

哎..... 经过了数日夜的努力,,, 生物还只是接近平均分,,,, 真他妈愁人,,,, 来了半年多了,, 不能再拿自己语言问题当借口了, 哪跌倒哪站起, ZAO AO!

假期回国有点眉目了, 不知是去印度前, 还是去印度然后再回国,,, 待定中...

看了韩寒骂王蒙的博克, 简直就是个上海小男人骂街, 为什么他逮谁骂谁呢......

国内80后的年轻人怎么都这么愤青(sometimes include myself^^), 文革后的又一乱套的年代? 后顽主时代?

不多说, 沈阳的哥们儿们, 等咱回去聚!

p.s.最忙碌的学期，格外的思乡

什么叫浪漫

2007-03-11T18:42:00.000-05:00

半夜被我的傻b邻居吵醒了, 就再也睡不着了，又看起了激情燃烧的岁月，太感人了，太绝了，令我想起了小时候在军区的生活, 实在控制不住情绪，居然不争气的流泪了，但当人回忆起美好的东西时总是要有情感的流露, 难道不是吗? 孙海英把石光荣这个角色演得绝透了，虽然看起来是个毫无文化的莽夫，但在我看来这个刚毅, 朴素 ,不居小节的军人才是真正的男子汉, 也是我永远最敬佩的那类人，保卫国家，前赴后继，相比之下, 我们现在的好生活多么的来之不易！那一代的军人不仅仅是“最可爱的人”，他们也是最最浪漫的人，纯朴的浪漫，不平凡的人生，作为家里唯一没有当过兵的人，我觉得很惭愧，生在了祖国稳定的年代却给我躁动的心灵留下了永久的遗憾，这部剧是完美的，完全不难想象姥姥姥爷就是这么浪漫的逐渐走向苍老，爸爸妈妈就是这样曲折地成长立事，这两代人的经历已经成为历史的经典，估计是永远没有办法再复刻了。。。。

祝愿亲爱伟大的祖国繁荣昌盛，全世界人民生活美满！

读后感

2007-03-04T22:18:00.000-05:00

仔细的读了贺达的博克, 太牛了! 以前从来没看过他写的文章, 这一下子就感到了震撼! 我发现自己真是井底之蛙, 自己的经历简直一马平川没有任何的沟壑, 说好听了是太顺利, 但我现在却觉得这简直是悲哀, 相比之下养尊处优的生活状态居然有时还能让我发出抱怨, 太没出息了! 也怪我身边没有几个脑子比较好的人, 到都是聪明人, 只能说"脑子"好的到真不多. 虽然过得也很快乐, 但自己有时候一总结觉得这种生活还是不够刺激, 还是有些三点一线, 缺乏着一些应该有的磨练和对生活苦涩一面的理解, 总是觉得好象人虽然要活得快乐, 但如果总是那么快乐着这人生也就不那么完整了, 爹妈从小给我创造的环境条件很舒适, 我很感激, 但是不是正是因为这些我就注定要比很多人在思想方面成熟的要晚, 看完那博克当时的感觉特别的深刻, 仿佛一下子感觉自己和哥有着天和地一般的差距, 似乎永远也难以弥补........
哎, 看来现在想也没有什么解决方案, 只能把眼前的事情先搞好, 漫漫的累积吧!
对了, 这个就是哥的博克, 让我很是感慨了一番的博克http://hihidavid.blogspot.com/ , 与大家分享一下!

p.s. 明天晚上化学第二次期中考试, 自我感觉准备已充分, 拿下它! 拜仁与皇马周3又是生死战, 虽然我是没办法看到了, 但是我为拜仁祈祷, 期待着能早日走出低谷, 重震雄风, 尤其是在欧洲战场上!

谢谢第一位评论的不知名的弟兄, 很高兴!!

零零碎碎

2007-03-03T15:24:00.000-05:00

human geography中学到全世界人类只有一个species, 就是homo sapien, 还真是那么回事, 虽说各地文化语言的差异很是明显, 但最基本的思维意识还都是那么一回事. 举个例子, 我邻居是个加拿大new foundland来的白人小伙, 和我比较熟悉, 因而总是在批评我所听的音乐都是garbage, 我问他, 你爱听什么, 他告诉我像, Red hot chilly pepper, 还有像muse这种音乐才牛比, 到是, 这两个乐队都成名很多年了, 我有的时候也挺喜欢听, 但由于现在的我主流听disco, 所以这家伙就说我在听垃圾, 直到前天我在听着muse的一首翻唱pet shop boys的一首算是disco的叫做can't take my eyes off you 歌, 那小伙又带着一脸坏笑钻进了我屋里, 就在他准备再次评论我的音乐的一刹那我开口了, "hey, you can't say anything this time, it's Muse!" 他满脸坏坏的笑容一下变了"Really??, let me see, I don't believe you"顺手抢走了我的ipod, 看了看的确是muse, 不吱声了, 叫袄,, 从中我联想到了名人广告的作用, 就好象有的人认准了某个牌子, 就一定要吊死在那里, 像高中的时候大家一定要穿nike, adidas而看到其他货物都嗤之以鼻, 却不知道其实还有更好的东西.

p.s. 想念秋天的Mount. A

美国之行小节

2007-03-01T10:06:00.000-05:00

美国之行的收获很大, 有视觉上的, 也有物质上的, 而更多的是精神上的!

在那看到了近一年来没有联系的表哥, 听他讲述着他以及在纽约中国城中那些以福州人为主的中

国人的生活状态, 我感到自己现在的生活实在是太幸福了! 有学上, 不愁没有钱花, 假期还可出去走

走, 作为学生我他妈还有什么可以奢望的呢? 我哥的可贵精神在于他的乐观, 我很敬佩, 这是值得我

去学习的东西. 总结一下, 可以说, 乐观是强大的精神动力的源泉!

从自己看到的加上听我哥描述的, 我们中国人在纽约的地位, 尤其是在生活在中国城中的人还是很

差, 与我们同样来自亚洲的韩国人, 日本人的地位还有差距, 联想到国内成天喊着要反日货, 杀

日猪的口号, 我十分不解国人中一些脑子不好的看不起其他国家种族的人是怎么想的! 真正的猛男

敢于直面于人生, 谦虚使人进步, 望我们中国人不要越来越脆

弱, 真正的从行动上逐渐振兴中华, 而不要总是嘴上涂个痛快.

你不买日货就是爱国? 我看不见得! 放下我们那脆弱的民族优

越感, 觉醒吧, 同胞们!

(p.s. 纽约, 波士顿的2月都他妈冷了, 明年的reading break 如果

再出去的话, 一定要去南方!)